I have the sweetest little bunch of kids. We had a FUN Valentine’s Day together! We made monkey bread in the morning, had lunch with friends, and Landon and I got to go on an unexpected date night to dinner! We were both so exhausted, we could barely talk…but we enjoyed a nice, quiet dinner at P.F. Changs, then raced home to share our chocolate cake with the girls. We are all in love with our sweet Beckham. I thought the initial excitement of baby brother would start to taper off a little bit, but it has only gotten stronger. Those girls truly love him, and it melts my heart. He’s the first thing they ask about when they wake up! We all love his sweet little personality so much!
I’ve been struggling with love and patience. It’s hard to be a stay at home mom sometimes (ok a lot of times). I’ve been thinking a lot about how being a mom it is completely dying to yourself and giving up everything for your kids. It’s eating animal crackers, cheez-its, and peanut butter and jelly crusts for lunch when you are trying to eat “clean”. It’s starting your day at 3:30 with a sweet baby. It’s doing four loads of laundry…thinking you are done for the day, then someone has a blowout all over your bed. It’s sacrificing my “wants” for their needs. There are days where I think I might lose my mind. There are days that I lose my temper, and have to apologize to the kids. There are days were I am counting down to bedtime, because I am so physically and mentally exhausted.
I’m thankful for forgiveness. And grace. I remember how important my role is as a mother. How my children are watching my every move, my reactions, my example…and I cringe…because I haven’t been the best example of love to my children at times. I can either beat myself up over it, or I can change. There are going to be rough days…but I want my children to see from my example that I respond in love, and that I am patient with them. Because I know they are only going to follow my example. I’m so thankful that God chose me to be their mother, but I also pray that I would make the right choices and be the best example to them of His love.
1 Corinthians 13
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.