It’s amazing how fast the last twenty days have gone since I last blogged. I haven’t been able to catch my breath long enough to get on here to write a blog post. It has been a CRAZY month…which is pretty normal around here. 🙂 I can’t believe my little guy is already five months old!
Beckham is such a sweet little guy…I know that I say that A LOT, but he really is such a happy-go-lucky little baby. He came down with an ear infection a couple weeks ago, and couldn’t sleep for naps, or bedtime. It didn’t matter if he was inclined, being rocked, or laying in his crib. Landon and I were lucky to get one hour of uninterrupted sleep for TEN days straight. My very sweet husband even pulled an all-nighter with Beckham so I could rest. During those ten days of walking around like a zombie, we managed to sell our Tahoe (which had been posted for about 6 weeks)! I shed a tear when we said good-bye to that car, but knew we needed something more practical for our family. So here we were on little sleep, a sick baby, and a honda accord coupe sitting in our garage. I had some VERY sweet friends who came to pick up kids for school AND let me borrow their car for the day as I was having trouble finding rides for all of our crazy school schedules. I cried many tears last week of frustration and many tears of thankfulness of family and friends who have been such a blessing to us! My dad came to the rescue a couple days later to help me get the girls to school and look for a new car.
It’s hard for me to write sometimes, because honestly these last five months have been FULL of blessings, but have also rocked my world. They have revealed many insecurities, and uncovered major areas of struggles that I am wrestling with. I have never been stretched so much physically, mentally and emotionally. Each day as I go to sleep, I think about how exhausted I am, but I also thank God for all the blessings He has given me. He’s teaching me who I need to be for my family. He’s showing me through the love that other people have shown my family, how to love.
I know this is sort of a random post, but I’m writing more for myself to remember. Because I know I’m going to look back and wish I could go back to sleepless nights and hard days. I want to remember these moments.