6 month update // still up all night

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Here’s our little nugget.  Six months old and just as cute as can be!  I’ve said this before, but he has been such a sweet addition to our family.  All you have to do is look at him, and he will grin from ear to ear.  He’s a laid back, happy, quiet baby.  Except for at night, but that’s okay at least he’s adorable right???

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We finally moved Beckham to his room right before our Destin Trip.  I would have let him sleep in our room until he was 16, but he was outgrowing his bassinet.  At his check-up yesterday his Dr. looked at me crazy when I said he wasn’t on a schedule, and wasn’t sleeping through the night.  He only looked at me like I had two heads, because all three girls (yes the twins!) were sleeping through the night by 8 weeks, and always on a perfect schedule.  Beckham has thrown Landon and I a curveball.  A lot of it is contributed to our crazy school schedule.  I have to wake him up both times from a nap to take Brooke to school.  I am ready for summer….I think.  We just keep looking at each other in the middle of the night and saying “It’s okay, he’s our last one”.  We are soaking up every minute, but baby B seems to be growing WAY TOO FAST!

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Those cheeks!  Believe it our not he is only in the 30th percentile for his weight.  He carries his weight in his cheeks…and his head.  Which is in the 86th percentile.  He’s perfect and healthy with a sweet “lumpy head” syndrome.  I’m so thankful for such a sweet baby…God has blessed our family with this sweet boy!

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All of these sweet photographs were taken by Sara Eaton Photography.  She is AMAZING with kids, and I have loved every milestone session she has done for our family…not to mention my children adore here.  Such a talented photographer and dear friend.  Thank you Sara!

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Destin Vacation

IMG_0406This was our view as we took our first walk on the beach.  It’s our tradition to park the cars and head to the beach before we even start unpacking.  It’s one of my favorite parts of our trip…because I love watching the excitement.  By the end of our walk, Brooke is always drenched from head to toe fully-dressed…she is my little beach lover.

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grandparents.jpgMy parents were on a road trip to the East Coast, and were able to stop by Destin on their way back home.  I was SO excited that they got to join us for a couple days and experience all the excitement and beauty!  I am in love with these two photos with them and Beckham.

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IMG_0389beauxjames.jpgThis is my nephew Beaux.  He LOVED the beach so much…just the sweetest and happiest baby I know!

IMG_0491BeckhamBeach.jpgBeckham enjoyed his first time in the sand. He wasn’t sure about the sun and wind though!

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IMG_0597 laurenbeach.jpgOh…my little Lauren…such a diva!

beachplay.jpgLily loved playing frisbee and soccer in the sand.  You couldn’t get Brooke to take those floaties off.  She LIVED outside playing in the sand and surf.  A girl after my own heart.

IMG_0670familypics.jpgWe had such a sweet vacation together.  It’s amazing how SO much changes within a year.  It was so nice to focus on our family and enjoy such a beautiful place together!

 

 

 

 

 

Finding the JOY in motherhood

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All I have every wanted was to be a mom.  I have always loved kids, and couldn’t wait to have some of my own.

My journey through motherhood has been a whirlwind.  Our “five year plan” turned in to a honeymoon baby, a set of twins, and a surprise little boy who was born last year to complete our family.  We have four kids under the age of five.  I wouldn’t want it any other way but….

I. am. exhausted.

There are days where I wish I could have just a thirty minute break to sit in silence. Days where I sit in my bathroom and cry.  Days when I feel like a complete failure as a mother.

I have been struggling lately.  Struggling to find the JOY in motherhood.  Last weekend rounded out a pretty hard week for me emotionally.  I spent most of that Sunday night crying to my husband, and complaining about how tired and frustrated I was.  He went to our bed and started watching videos of Brooke, Lily and Lauren when they were babies.  My heart broke in a million pieces.  I was so happy….you could tell the joy and happiness that I had as a mother…enjoying all those little moments with my children.  I decided I needed to find that joy again.

I’ve got the most important job in the world.  I have four sets of eyes watching everything I do.  I don’t want to look back in a few years and think about how HARD this period of my life is.  I want to look back and think about how much happiness we had in our home.  How I let myself find joy in HIM, and how that spilled out into my family.  I don’t want to get lost in the laundry, a messy home, the dirty dishes and the sleepless nights. I want our home to be filled with laughter.  I want to be a Godly example to my kids.  I want to be patient, loving, kind and full of joy.

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We have been making some sweet memories together over the last couple weeks.  Since the twins would be missing several days of school, we decided to keep them out for the month of May.  I talked to a few moms Wednesday and they were reminding me of the Mother’s Day Tea at the school (not realizing we were out of school).  I cried a few times that night, then woke up Thursday morning in tears over the fact that I would be missing that special time with the twins.  I’m not sure why I was so emotional about it…but I was.  When I picked Brooke up from school she ran to the car with the cutest little gift bag.  Her eyes were so sweet…she has been waiting all week to bring that gift home!  She smiled and watched my every move as I read the card and opened my gift.  It was exactly what I needed.  I cried as I read the last answer to that little survey.  Sometimes I feel like I am just disciplining, ordering, shuffling the kids around.  She remembers me saying “I love you” the most.

I have made SO many mistakes and I’m learning a LOT along the way.  I’m thankful for God’s grace, and the fact that he has entrusted me with four beautiful children.  I want to soak these moments in….because I literally blinked and six years just flew by.  I want to remember being happy….wiping these noses, rocking the baby, answering a million questions, making peanut butter and jellies, cleaning up messes.  I know I’ll blink a few more times and wish I could go back in time and do all those things again.

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