9 month update // keeping me on my toes

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Our little man is 9 months old.  I can’t believe in just a few months he will be ONE.  This kid is keeping us on our toes.  He is at the “put everything in my mouth, climb on everything and fall and hit my head” stage.  Yep…I can now see what everyone has been talking about when they warn me about boys.
9monthsHe doesn’t sit still for very long – he has to find a way to stand up using anything and everything surrounding him.  Usually…it’s something that will tip over…he just rolls on over and gets back up again.  He’s also pretty close to standing up on his own!

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Beckham’s favorite game is peek-a-boo.  I love bath time, because he always pulls the towel up over his eyes and “hides”!

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If only I had a lysol bomb for my house, and a maid that followed my kids around to pick up every piece of trash that hit the floors.  Beckham finds everything…stickers, screws, puzzle pieces, crayons and dead bugs.  He’s attempted eating all those things…I hope I have recovered most of it from his mouth.
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He’s become a picky eater ALREADY.  He loves meet, cheese, carbs and yogurt, and has even started to yell for other people’s food.  He’s quite the laid back little guy, but he takes his food seriously.

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He keeps me on my toes, but he also makes me smile constantly and gives the best cuddles.  So thankful for such a sweet baby!

Mommy & Me

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I LOVE these photos that Sara took of Beckham and I!  He is such a laid back little guy, but had an ear infection this day.  As always, she managed to get amazing photos of him looking as sweet as can be!PicMonkey Collage01

I’m so thankful God blessed us with a little boy so I can experience that special mother/son relationship.  Since he’s also the baby of the family, he get’s EXTRA spoiled!  Have I mentioned he’s still sleeping in our room in our closet?  Oh my.  That’s going to be a fun habit to break.   Not to mention I can’t get to most of my clothing….which I’m okay with if I can sleep through the night.

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I love these photos.  Time is flying by so quickly, I know it won’t be long before I’m looking at these photos….reminiscing over these sweet baby moments.  Thank you Sara for using your beautiful gift to create lasting memories for our family!

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All images by Sara Eaton Photography

First Day of School

 

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Oh I can’t believe it.  My three girls are all at school right now as we speak.  Beckham is napping, and the house is completely quiet.  I’m baking cupcakes, writing this blog post and drinking a diet coke.  The quiet is so unusual.  I know I will get used to it, but I just can’t wait for all the girls to come home so I can hear how their first day of school went!

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My KINDERGARTNER!  I have loved watching this girl mature and grow into a little lady the last year.  She has changed so much over the year.  She is always looking out for others, she has a giving heart, and she has developed such an independent and free spirit.  She’s riding the bus home today.  I fought hard against that, but she was ready, and it will save me a third trip to the school.  I’ll be out there waiting this afternoon…I will try not to cry.  Her favorite part of going to school was that she got to eat lunch there, didn’t have to take a nap, and that she gets to ride the bus home.  Yesterday she said…”Mom I hope this day goes by super fast so I can go to school tomorrow.” I feel like it was yesterday that I held her in my arms for the first time.  I can’t believe it.  I’m so excited for her to make new friends, learn new things and grow even more!

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Sweet Lily.  She wants to be a mommy when she grows up.  🙂  It was the perfect thing for her to tell me this morning as I was trying to keep it together.  She’s such a sweet girl who loves spiderman, giving hugs and playing soccer.  She and Lauren get to be in the same Preschool class.  They usually do a great job of branching off, and not depending too much on each other.  I’m praying it stays that way…I would love to see them stay together!
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Sweet Lauren.  She wants to be a mommy too.  I know this will change every year…okay every day…but it’s sweet.  Lauren has such a sweet and nurturing personality.  She is my diva, my girly girl, and she calls herself a princess.  I love how opposite she and Lily are.  They make the perfect pair!

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I’m just sitting here…baking…blogging…cleaning…playing with Beckham…watching the clock!!!  Hope everyone has an amazing school year!

Time Flies…

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Last year I took these photos of the girls with a pair of Beckham’s little shoes.  I can’t believe it’s been almost a year, because it seems like yesterday that we were taking these photos.  It’s so fun to see how much the girls have changed over the year.  They are all becoming their own little ladies, each with their own and unique personality.

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I will have THREE girls going to school on Thursday.  I’ve cried a few times, but I am truly excited for all the new things they will learn and the friends they will make.  I can’t wait for them to come home and tell me all about their day!

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The twins will be in the same preschool class.  I’m so thankful they have each other.  They are so silly, make each other laugh, and fight like cats and dogs.  They have such a special relationship and an amazing bond as sisters.

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Anywhere Beckham is, Brooke is.  She is such a sweet big sister and has been protective over him since day one.  He LOVES seeing her, and always gives her the brightest and biggest smile when he sees her in the morning.  She makes it a priority to kiss him when he wakes up, and before she goes to bed.  Love it.


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Oh, then there’s this sweet buddy.  For 3 hours a day while the girls are in school, I will have an only child.  We will play, sleep, eat, run errands and have the best time together.  As much as I’m going to miss the girls, I’m excited to have this special time together with my sweet boy!

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I’m one blessed mama.  

 

 

 

more grace

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Oh…where do I begin.  For the last 8 months, I feel like I have been fighting an emotional and physical battle with myself.  I have struggled with sadness and sometimes anger.  I look around me, and I have the most wonderful husband and kids that a woman could ask for.  And for some reason I have let some extreme sadness overwhelm me. I feel like since Beckham has been born, I have been in a crazy whirlwind.  I’ve never experienced a period of time that has gone by so quickly.  My last little baby is crawling, the twins are going to preschool and Brooke is going to start kindergarten this fall.  Every time those thoughts cross my mind I tear up and ask myself if I made the most of my time with Brooke when she was home….if I ruined them by yelling at them this morning…do they even know I love them?!?  My mind can’t grasp the fact that from now on, Brooke will be in school for the next 13 years.

My body is exhausted, I am worn out.  I try my hardest to meet all the needs of my family, while trying to meet the needs of everyone else around me. Why??? Because I want to be that perfect wife and mother…because I want to be accepted…because I want those strong friendships.  I’m stretched completely thin, and I wonder why i can’t get everything done.  I compare myself with others, and wonder why sometimes we don’t have things as “easy” as those around us (forgetting they have their own struggles).  All of this boils down to one fact….God is not enough for me… and He needs to be.

The last few weeks I have tried my hardest to focus on what God has for me.  My relationship with him, my husband and my kids.  I have failed…time and time again.  He has forgiven me each and every time.  I need to live the gospel out in my life…I need my family to see that I need God’s grace.  I need to stop holding myself to unattainable standards.  I need to stop focusing on pleasing others. I have to start focusing on Christ and what He has for me. When my relationship with Him is right…and I am trusting Him…everything else will fall into line.

“If we want to give grace to our children, then first we must be willing to receive it ourselves from God. At some point, we will fail, and sometimes we will fall hard.  Then we must boast in the gospel, because in it God mercifully gives us Christ to be our valued treasure.  Things like “mommy guilt” cannot crush us because Christ was crushed on the cross in our stead.  Jesus is our consistency, he fulfilled God’s highest expectations of perfection and in him all the promises of God find their yes.  In him we find mercy in our time of need – which is always.” -Treasuring Christ when our Hands are Full

God has shown Himself to me in some amazing ways this last week.  Through His word, through my Godly husband who always points me to Christ, through the prayers and encouragement of friends, through worship songs.  He has given me a pretty amazing and important job.  He hasn’t just left me alone to accomplish this job, but promises to walk with me each step of the way.  I have fallen and failed miserably.  He has forgiven.  His mercies are new each morning.